Why are men today so pussiefied?

Oh man, I don't know if it's all the bad stuff happening or if they were always like that but honestly, I think they were always like that. But I just want to say that I feel like a lot of men are pussies. And I say that with the utmost civility and honesty. You know we're not trying to start any fights and stuff like that. And I've also been called a lot of names by them too so I'm sure that they're not going to be too hurt if I went ahead and said something about them as well! In my opinion today January 2nd 2025, I would like to say that I think a lot of men are pussies. And also another thing about it is that, I'm not exactly sure why as a man gets older, he turns into a bigger pussy and I don't think it has anything to do with the fact that he's like becoming older and possibly more frail? And I honestly don't even think that a lot of men age to be frail. I mean there are frail people that are young and frail people that are old and I don't think that just because you get older, that you necessarily become completely immobilized and weak and frail and whatever. because also I do see that a lot of young people are also that way too so I don't think it really has to do with the aging process. I just wanted to say that I feel like a lot of men are pussies. And another thing about it is that when there's like really bad news? I feel like men have a feeling that it has to do with them. I can tell because when there's something like really bad going on like for example so on January 1st and New Year's Eve and whatever, and also the week of Christmas and stuff basically around end of Christmas and beginning of january, there was a lot of bad news. And so I always like to try to finish off the bad news and I really don't even want to get into the bad news but it's on the television as well as the internet as well as on the newspaper wherever I go. So and one thing I do notice about the body language of men versus the body language of women tells me exactly that for some reason, men are insanely scared when really really bad news comes out. Like I don't know why that is and I'm trying to figure out why. It seems like women are much more calm unless of course they were the one victimized by it or they were part of the families that were victimized by it but if they were not, it seems like women have like ingrained you know what I mean like still a steadiness to them that seems like they're processing the bad news like a lot better than men do. And another thing about that is that, for some reason like the body language and the overall just feeling that comes from a man that just finds out about like really bad news especially in his country, I feel like he's really scared that it has to do something with him or that it was his fault or that he's really scared that something is basically going to happen to him as well. Like he's just only like protecting himself and honestly, I don't really get the feeling like he wants to or needs to protect anybody else besides the the guy himself. The individual guy. So it's like basically every man for himself type of thing to the millions degree. Like and the more bad news that comes out, I noticed that a lot of men their body language and the way that they talk as well as the way that they just you know move around and stuff like that tells me that they are believing more than ever that it's basically every man for himself. And it also kind of tells me in some ways that if he's in a relationship or if he's married or if he has children, that it doesn't really matter because if it's every man for himself, then he's not really looking to you know what I mean? Like he's not really looking to really protect or help to you know you know carry on whatever it is that he thinks he's going to carry on such as like bloodline or some family line or whatever the fuck you know what I mean? I don't know if I'm explaining it exactly. But and I also think I've said this but I'm not sure if I like elaborated but I do feel like, like he's willing to kind of like sacrifice the rest of his family or sacrifice you know other people's money or other people's well-being in order to save himself type of thing with the more like bad news that comes out. So maybe he thinks that he's on a sinking ship? Maybe he thinks that wherever he goes like wherever he travels to, it's like a giant sinking ship and he doesn't want to save anybody else except himself or something like that. But I don't know if that's like necessarily true but that's just the like overall feeling that I'm getting from the different overhearing discussions as well as the overall nervousness of a lot of guys. As well as the paranoia like the paranoid looks that a lot of men have? I feel like not even half of the women population at least in the united states, I feel I don't feel like there as paranoid or their as nervous as a lot of men out there. For some reason I don't know what maybe it's also because I'm a female so I feel like maybe that's why because maybe somehow my opinion is biased but, I'm really trying to like look at it from like an unbiased standpoint and it's just a feeling that I'm getting. I don't really feel like a lot of women are like as nervous as men are for some reason and I don't know why that is. Because you would think that as females, like me and other females would be like really you know crazy nervous and scared and paranoid about everything that's going on but that's really not the vibe that I get for some reason. It's like actually the nervous vibe and the scared vibe and the intimidated and threatened vibe is actually coming more from men for some reason. And I don't know why that is because men are supposed to be stronger like physically as well as they're supposed to be mentally stronger you know because you know they're supposed to be men and so you you relate that to them just overall being not scared of something. Maybe it's the fact that men are not really scared of like physical things let's say like if they have a job that entails them having to climb buildings and do car work or some dangerous job or something, they're not really scared about dangerous jobs. But men are scared of the unknown or men are I'm not exactly sure why there why I'm feeling like men are scared or something. I don't understand maybe they feel like guilty feeling about something that they did do or something that they didn't do? Or I don't know maybe they're feeling like karma or something is going to get them and they're scared that suddenly they're going to get into an accident or suddenly somebody's going to try to kill them or something. Maybe they feel like they did something wrong to wear destiny or God himself is going to like try to strike at them or something I don't know but whatever it is I just feel like a lot of fear coming from men and not women. Like you know and also like childbirth and all of the physical pain that women have gone through, they just like they're probably used to like being in a really scary situation as well as just suffering physically and so maybe they feel like they've already gone through all the suffering enough to where they really don't have to be scared anymore but I don't know if it's that. I just feel like it's they're like not I scared for some reason I don't know. Like I get this weird feeling like men are really scared. About something it's like they're coming across as like people basically who have lived like really selfish lives and they're trying to continue living however the fuck they want to live without anyone telling them what to do and they're afraid that they are gradually being found out. That God himself or something out there is starting to find out that a lot of men out there have been living extremely selfishly and been very greedy and basically only looking out for themselves and being very stubborn and also a lot of times being very shitty too especially towards women, and very sinful and sinister and not understanding and not sympathetic and stuff like that and maybe they're feeling like something is starting to find out that they have not lived as nicely as they could have or should have and that something is trying to Target them because God himself or something like that is starting to find out and he's getting really mad about it. I mean at the most like extreme point of view to try to explain why they are so scared lately and maybe even from a long time ago, I'm trying to justify why they're being like that. I mean I think at the likes religious explanation of it, the religious explanation of it all, that would be the religious explanation as far as their vibe and feeling that I'm getting out of how scared they are. Like they're feeling like possibly maybe they did something wrong maybe? Like possibly they feel like even though they're feeling guilty about something, they don't want to have to give up their lives or like give up their freedom and their happiness so that they have to make it up to somebody I don't know. Like and a lot of men you know they obviously have a lot of problems you know telling somebody that they're sorry or problems sucking up their pride and making it up to somebody that they hurt or something. You know they they don't want to give up that's why there's a lot of wars in human history. Ever since the creation of mankind, there's been like wars and battles and killings and genocides like almost every fucking year of in human history timeline! There's been I mean even like the torture devices. I mean seriously? I mean how are you going to make those kinds of devices that tear people apart. You know you know putting people inside of like these metal moldings to where the people are put inside of there and then they lock them in there and then they put the metal molding over fire. So like you're basically being cooked alive. You know and all of those things were made by the mind of men. Maybe a few of those things were made by women but overall in general, those things and you know battles and wars and stuff like that, those were all made from the minds of men. Because like for some reason when you like watch like let's say you have a little son. You have little boys and your family you have a bunch of little boys and you're watching or maybe you have boys and girls but you already know what the happening is. You know you already know that for your sons for your newborn sons, you're going to have to start decorating his room with different colors and you're going to have to start giving him different toys and stuff like that. And then for the girl baby that you have, you're going to have to decorate the room differently for the girl baby! And then if you watch like how they interact as they grow up and what they do, a lot of times these like little baby boys they get involved with like destructive things and they like to fight or watch people fight or watch things fight or whatever. And they like like aggressive things. You know and you know you can blame it on the testosterone and stuff like that but still, you don't have to raise your baby boy to grow up that way. I mean but then again they think that if you don't raise an aggressive boy, then you're going to like raise some kind of homosexual boy or something. But I don't feel like that's actually necessarily true because I don't feel like just because you're homosexual that you're not going to be aggressive. I also feel like a lot of homosexual guys, are actually a little more aggressive than some heterosexual guys even though they come across as not aggressive. You know and so I don't feel like it's always a requirement to try to raise your baby boy to try to like watch fighting and to watch two cars ram each other and shit like that that's another thing. I also feel like that's another thing about like raising a baby boy is a lot of parents, they get these vehicles these toy cars and what these like little baby boys do is that like they take two cars and they ran them up against each other like they're trying to like crash them. You know I must have seen this from like little boys like all over you know we've all seen it. You know they sit there and they play with their like toy cars and then for some reason the play time it ends with them like trying to destroy something. Like they can't just stop the play time and go back to their room or go to sleep. They have to like conclude the play time with some sort of destruction or something. And it's like you don't have to raise that kind of baby boy. Like you don't have to wait until they destroy something. Let's see if they have like dolls even though they're boys, a lot of people like to give their boys like dolls of superheroes. And then they have the superheroes and then they also give the dolls of the villains so they're like fighting each other and then you know you give them Legos but you don't just give them Legos but you have to give them the Legos that's like the fortress that has to be there prior to them causing some kind of destruction. You know it's like the fortress Lego that they have to make because there's going to be some kind of attack or something that the boy himself creates! So you're like giving him the fortress but then you're also giving him the dolls that are a villains but also dolls of the superheroes and you're giving the little boy possession of all those things all at once and so what he's going to do is say well here's my little fortress collection. I can build this fortress and then after I build this fortress he's going to say well here's this really ugly doll that I have. And this ugly doll looks like he would be a bad guy but you don't tell him that. Let's say you give him a doll that's really ugly. But you don't tell him necessarily that it's supposed to be the villain. So what do you think he's going to do with the ugly doll and fortress Legos and a handsome prince doll? So what is going to happen with those things? For some reason a lot of times, I feel like more than likely, that little boy is going to attribute okay well I want to destroy that fortress. But how am I going to do it with the supply that I have of the dolls and the legos. Because let's say for example that's all you give to your baby boy. And so he's stuck in the room and he hasn't been introduced to anything on tv. So he has never watched anything violent on tv. He has never seen two people fight. He has never raised his voice and you've never raised his voice at him. And suddenly you are presenting him with Lego fortresses and dolls that are of different physical appearance and time. So he's in this bedroom with those items. And he is a little baby boy and he's not even in school yet he doesn't know anything about anything. So what is he going to do with those things? When you watch that carefully, I already know probably in more than like 80% of the cases. He's either going to cause the two dolls to fight. Or he's going to find some way to try to destroy the fortress even though you did not specifically tell him that it's a fortress let's say. Let's say you just told him okay well this is what it's supposed to look like and that's all I'm going to tell you. So what is he going to do? I don't understand the programming or the reasoning behind why a lot of boys have to find some way to destroy something or to cause fighting or something like that. Like and why girls if in that situation, like little girls are really funny because let's say they were given the same items. Okay let's say you gave them Lego fortress and told them that this is supposed to be what it looks like. More than likely little baby girls are more than likely going to take their time to try to build their fortress as nicely as possible. But we don't know exactly what they're going to try to do after the fact. I mean we think that most baby girls are going to try to preserve the fortress. And that's another thing about like little baby girls starting from the beginning of their life is that like I feel like the baby girls you know are different because they tried to preserve stuff. They want to like have stuff intact and they want to protect it and they want to like preserve it. They don't want to like destroy it. And so like not sure exactly why that is like that but it's not also like that 100% of the time. Because you know there are some girls that are different they're like they're angry. They probably have like DNA that something frustrating happened and so it was like handed down from like their parents or something and that's like a very like occasional case of what happens you know in that situation but most girls, like little baby girls that haven't been exposed to this world, they like to like preserve and take their time and build and follow instructions or something like that. I'm not exactly sure what they would do with the ugly doll? You know because if you give them let's say you gave them the doll that is like extremely handsome prince like a the Ken doll from the Barbie set. And then you gave them another doll that's extremely ugly. Not exactly sure what they would do in that situation. I'm not sure I'm trying to picture like what they might do? Like with the ugly doll? I don't know they might like throw it aside. They might think it's scary or something and throw it and they might not want to play with it or something. Or I'm not sure that would be very interesting to see what they would do. You know I think if I had kids I'm not sure if I would like experiment like that and I'm not saying that's actually an experiment like a true experiment but I mean it would be interesting to find out like what they would do. I'm not sure what the baby girl would do with the ugly doll. I mean maybe even like pick out his hair or try to somehow make the ugly doll look really handsome or something. Maybe like do something to the ugly doll to make it look better. I don't know but maybe she would use the ugly doll to destroy the fortress. But then that would mean that she has like masculine tendencies and like she wants to destroy the fortress because somehow the ugly doll is upsetting her and suddenly she's becoming a man with a man's rage and she wants to use the ugly doll to destroy everything. Because somehow the ugly doll affected her to where she's permanently angry or something. I don't know but with the handsome dog, she would probably you know take the doll and then put the doll inside of the fortress and then place the prints the handsome prince doll inside of the fortress and then you know calmly find some way to make him live his life inside of the fortress or something. And then I'm not sure what you would do with the ugly doll up here I'm actually really curious now what what you would do. We got I know that as females like when baby girls grow up into adult females, they still for some reason are attracted to and interested in the attractive guys more than they are in the unattractive guys. I'm not sure exactly why that is and they're trying to select good mates for their selves and they're trying to select someone that looks like they would be good for the relationship or the future or something? But I'm not sure I guess I don't know if I agree with that or disagree I guess I mean if that's the way that you know women are you know trying to select their boyfriends is because they feel like the better looking men would be like overall like better boyfriends or better protectors or like better for the bloodline or something. Not exactly sure what the actual fact of the matter is behind that. But I would be okay with assuming and you know it's just assumption that in order to explain why grown women are more attracted to attractive men, I would think that in order to explain that, I think that, the little finding out of what little girls little baby girls would do with those different tools that's given to them including the doll that's really ugly. I would be interested to see what these little baby girls do too the ugly dolls the ugly guy dolls that are given to them prior to being exposed to anything in this world. Like I'm wondering what what they would do like would they try to improve upon their looks? Would they throw them to the side and not want to do anything with that doll? Would they try to use the ugly guy doll to try to destroy the fortress and therefore become permanently angry like a man? Would they use ugly doll as the handsome dolls slave? I mean that's a really detailed and I'm not really sure the little girls would go that far but you never know! You really don't know but I would be interested in finding out what they would do. You know that would probably explain you know why a lot of girls are attracted to attractive guys and not attracted to ugly guys. You know and all this stuff about the heart and you know having sympathy and blah blah blah. You know but I mean you know having sympathy and you know stuff like that, doesn't have anything to do with, choosing a better looking man because you feel like basically he's going to be the better choice for the relationship? Because like in the long run or whatever that thing is scientific explanation is. You know and so but anyway back to you know men being that way for some reason. But that really doesn't explain why these grown men are feeling extreme fear lately as well as from a long time ago. Because imagine the little boy with those items like the Legos and the handsome prince and then the ugly villain only just those things. And suddenly, he's feeling really scared and he doesn't want to play with those toys anymore. Like I really can't imagine it but I want to try to see if I could put that fear like if you could like imagine that kind of fear starting from like a little boy like what would he do? Like he would feel like he wants to leave everything alone probably. Like if he was in a room with those like items and those well not just items but to him they're supposed to be toys but still you know what I mean I feel like obviously they're more than just toys. No because they're like representations of actual things that the boy has to interact with as he grows older and older. So you call it a toy but they're like representations of what he would be surrounded with you know and what he would be surrounded with our buildings as he grows older. And he's going to be surrounded by different looking people. And so the way that he handles those things when he's a child, is going to possibly have a lot of influence on the way that he's going to handle those things as an adult. But not all the time because a lot of people they change as they get old. Their personalities change and sometimes they do and sometimes they don't. And maybe not because a lot of grown men they are warmongers. They are obsessed with war. And so obviously they haven't changed much since they were a little kid because a lot of little baby boys they like fighting and they like destroying. And so if you're like a warmonger as an adult, then you haven't really changed since you were a kid! But some guys yeah they are obsessed with fighting and wars and destroying and killing and stuff like that. But like if let's say that little boy suddenly started feeling like oh maybe he did something wrong with those toys. Maybe he should not have destroyed that fortress. But does he have enough deepness in his little boy baby boy brain to even understand that far? Like question his own actions and not just questioning his own actions but saying maybe he shouldn't have destroyed the fortress let's say for example. Like and then so he's feeling like because I destroyed the fortress, is something going to hurt me? Like is he capable of feeling you know what I mean? Like and so he starts to feel fear as he lives his life because the fortress has been destroyed. But it's not like it can't be rebuilt. But some little boys, you see those Legos are interesting because after you destroy the Lego building that you build or whatever it is, you can rebuild. Because they're just Legos and also you know as you turn into an adult, you can still like rebuild even if after everything's been destroyed. And so we have this like Lego rebuilding mentality where, we feel like it's probably okay to destroy something because later on, you could just rebuild it! and so as little boys you're basically getting nothing but practice over and over again in the area of destroying something then rebuilding it. Destroying something then rebuilding it. Causing something to fight and then causing something to make up. And then causing something to fight and causing something to make up. And then destroying something and then rebuilding it. So you're like helping that little boy to get that kind of practice. It's like is that necessarily something that you want to teach your kid? You know you're teaching your kid like basically I feel like it's going to influence other areas of his life and more importantly, his relationships because buildings and fighting are not more important than love and relationships and maybe I'm just saying that because I'm a female. You know it's not more important than relationships and the person that you're supposed to be with for the rest of your life. You know all of those buildings and all of that fighting and the villains and the superheroes are not more important than that. So why is this baby boy grows up, like he's getting so much practice and destroying and rebuilding destroying and rebuilding. Killing and giving birth. You know and stuff like that. But I mean what are you going to teach that little boy that is going to show him that there's more to life than that? You know what I mean because like all of that stuff obviously with buildings too, it requires money. So what are the things that money cannot buy? You're teaching him that basically as long as you have a lot of money, then you can basically buy anything you want. So like so this guy you know this guy meaning like little baby boy turns into a guy. He has learned he has learned and is still continuously learning that money can buy anything that he wants. Including love and relationships and the women that he wants. And if you require money to buy the love that you want, that baby boy is going to grow up to be a very depressed and or quite possibly a very angry guy. Of course angry then he would just take it out on something that he can destroy and rebuild and destroy and rebuild. He could just take it out on that because he already had a lot of practice doing that as a child. And so he's not going to express his sadness but rather he is going to take that kind of sadness and that kind of frustration and anger out on something else. Something that he has already gotten to know let's say. And so he he can't buy love and he can't buy attraction with the money that he has and unfortunately, some women they are attracted to men with money. So let's say even if that man did not have money? And he was really attractive? They would not date him because he doesn't have money and that also proves like some women choose their mates depending on how much money they have because they feel like that's also another indicator on how well he's going to take care of his family or his girlfriend or his wife or whatever the fuck. But what are some of the things you know you're going to like Wonder like what are some of the things that money cannot buy? I mean do you want everything to be able to be bought with money? I mean do you really want to make it also that easy and that unemotional to wear every single thing in this world spiritual emotional and physical can be bought with simply money? I mean what would be the consequences of that? And I know you say and you might think that there are no consequences to that. Because once you buy the thing that you've always wanted with money, you already have the thing that you always wanted with money with or without money. Let's say there was something or someone that you could not have a relationship with or you could not be friends with and finally you are able to be friends with them after you pay them off or something. Or after you give them a really expensive gift or something. There are results to that. And if he's upon like the ignorance that is there when a person ignores any character flaws that they need to work on. Because maybe they have some character flaws and personality issues that is the reason behind why they could not receive or give the love that they wanted. Or have the person that they wanted. And So when you buy the love that you want, your character flaw or whatever the hell that you need to work on, is being put to the side and more than likely, that issue is going to come out later on in the relationship whether you bought that love or if you did not buy that love. And so you're just like you know buying off the person or whatever, and the issue started to come up and you're wondering well I paid high price for this person to be with me. I paid high price for this woman to love me and for some reason she doesn't love me love me. She's always like angry with me or she's possibly cheating on me or something to that effect. But like you feel like she should be yours because you bought her with money. But unfortunately with women it's completely different story. You know like I said the preservation thing and then the emotion thing as well as being nice and stuff like that is usually like ingrained in a lot of females since birth. And so you know like you trying to preserve the love and sincerity inside of a woman by buying her love is like clashing inside of my mind for some reason. It's like I feel like there's no way that you can like buy her actual love like you know what I mean cuz you're like I don't know but I feel like it just for some reason it just clashes it just doesn't go together at all. Like with the fact that like naturally women are like like to you know keep things and not destroy things. Like for some reason even though it sounds like it doesn't have anything to do with each other, for some reason there is something wrong with that. Like when a man is trying to buy a woman's love with money, and the fact that women a lot of women just naturally they like to like preserve and stuff like that, it just seems like the two doesn't go for some reason. I don't know I'm sure there's obviously a very philosophical explanation as to why the two those two things don't go well together. And eventually I'm sure I'm going to figure it out but, for some reason I just it just doesn't fit. And so I don't know like so aside from the little baby boy like learning how to destroy stuff and rebuild and destroy stuff and rebuild. Like and then suddenly fear a lot of men these days have a lot of fear. So like maybe they're scared of being found out that they destroyed something that they shouldn't have destroyed. I don't know maybe it could be that! Or they stepped upon some aspect of life with let's say their family or their friends or their co-workers or strangers even, they did something or destroyed something or cause somebody to fight and it was the wrong thing to do. Maybe they're starting to realize something like that and it's causing them fear inside because what else would cause fear like that? I mean them losing their lives? I mean is it solely that they are scared of losing their lives like the people they just read about on the news? I mean maybe with someone they are very scared of losing their lives. Some men I meant. You know that's why I'm trying to explain like that's how I'm trying to explain why in the mail community, why is there so much fear inside of them why are they giving off nervous energy and paranoid energy and scared energy especially lately? I mean quite possibly they really could be scared of losing straight up losing their fucking lives just lights out all the sudden. You know if you like listen to some of these recordings and I heard some of the September 11th recordings, and these guys were all the way at the top and they were telephoning the 911 system and a lot of these guys, they said that these firefighters need to hurry up and rescue them because they are too young to die. Literally there was a guy who was recording on 911, who said that he's not done yet and he is too young to die so therefore the firefighters need to hurry up and come rescue him. Do you realize how many guys out there think that way? A shit ton of guys. I mean you could be like 40 years old or 30 years old and still be the type of guy that that guy was and say that I am too young and too important right now to die and you need to hurry up and priorit . And so maybe that could explain some of the but the scary body language? That's coming from men? I'm not sure maybe it could maybe I'm like trying to explain this in a like a extreme philosophical spiritual way like I did with the feeling guilty aspect. It's like come on now. How many fucking guys are going to feel so guilty about something shitty that they did to where they're giving off nervous vibes? Straight up, straight up the bottom line is that, let's just say literally they're giving off nervous vibes because they don't want to die yet. As a female you know I have a fucking history of trying to defend guys that don't need that kind of defense. And by that I mean that I'm trying to explain their behavior as nicely as possible but that's not fucking necessary. Because you know why it's not necessary? Because my defense of them is incorrect. Some guys are scared lately because of the guilt that they are feeling. That's fucking laughable. That is laughable and actually a lot of guys if I were to verbalize my explanation right now to try to say that they're feeling nervous or scared because somehow they are regretful or feeling guilty of any mistreatment towards anybody. They would actually laugh inside at me. They would say that's really nice of you. No that like seriously that's really nice of you to try to make it seem like maybe we're feeling bad about something. When literally, the actual reason may be that they literally just are nothing except scared to die. That's why they're feeling paranoid and nervous but here I am trying to like have this giant explanation and this philosophical approach as to why men have nervous energy lately. That's why I've been screwed you know also physically but also mentally by a lot of men out there. You know I mean maybe not a lot but the men that have screwed with me you know on a mental level as well as a physical level, a lot of times I did get attached to them. You know because I'm a female so like naturally, I got emotionally attached to them because I'm supposed to like preserve whatever I felt like me and that guy had. So like I want to preserve and I want to be nice and I want to you know have a good outcome I don't want to destroy the good thing that I'm feeling with whatever guy that I was feeling with. But, not so with some guys. And so me coming up with this giant philosophical fucking approach to try to explain their fucking behavior, is only hurting guess who? Guess who the only person is the person that's going to get hurt out of this philosophical fucking approach as to why men these days are feeling scared? It's going to be me more than likely! Just like like let's say in some games, like literally games like I'm not talking about head games right now. We're talking about like actual board games or casino games or video games, I'm sitting there trying to fucking analyze the fucking game Way beyond what it needs to be analyzed as. You know I've had this fucking problem for so long? I've always like come to like the defense of the wrong fucking people. You know and the wrong fucking shit by either over fucking analyzing everything. Or like looking Way beyond what I need to actually look at. You know I literally would have probably actually won a lot of games? If I had not sit there and overshot and oversought and over analyzed and over defended whatever the fuck I'm thinking I'm saying. Literally way too deep of a fucking analysis. Way too fucking deep of a defense way too fucking analytical and way to philosophical of a fucking approach. It's way too fucking philosophical. Way too emotional approach to what is a simple fucking solution to it. They're literally has been a fucking simple solution to everything that I probably nearly everything that I could do in my life. Including the men some of the men that I was involved with. You know I feel like one of the other explanations as to why men are scared so badly these days is that there's nothing beyond the fact that, they are just straight up scared to die all of a sudden. They don't want to die right now. They don't want to die without living the rest of their lives out and then saying okay now you could kill me. Okay now I could die I'm ready to go because I lived the rest of my life and now I'm ready. So it's like then on their terms, they are then okay with dying. But not right now. That's what they're like literally saying inside of their brains as well as to other people is that not right now. Don't kill me right now. don't do anything to me right now because either I'm too young to die or because I haven't done enough in my life or because I'm a man and I don't deserve to die right now go ahead and kill my wife or kill my girlfriend or kill my daughters but don't kill me right now because I'm a man and I'm not ready to die yet. And that's why I'm giving off nervous energy after all this bad news because I'm scared to fucking get my fucking lights out because I'm not done living yet. But maybe that's literally like the bottom list of all bottomless lines is that straight up that's pretty much the explanation as to why most men these days are coming across as very paranoid and very scared. They're not done yet and they don't want to die. They are either too young to die or they have so many kids. You know like another thing I overhear from a lot of men that are dying like in accidents we're talking about like not gradual old age type of dying but like sudden accidents or sudden something. They say they're the father of four children. I'm a father to a two-year-old daughter and so therefore I can't die. Or I'm the worker or I'm the president of this company and so therefore I can't die. Or I'm Taylor Swift and I can't dive I'm a famous celebrity so therefore I'm not able to die right now quite yet but later on after I get really old, you can go ahead and do whatever you want with me or kill me or whatever. But like you know here is me, having this giant over analytical fucking approach as to why I'm feeling like men are giving off nervous energy. And so I'm the one that's getting fucking laughed at. I'm the one that's getting mine fucked. I'm the one that's getting emotionally hurt and messed with because I'm also the one that literally overshot and over analyzed the actual explanation and reason behind a lot of things that I'm wondering about. Including why men seem very scared. They're not done exploring. They're not done getting all the money that they want. They have to build their fortress first and then you can somehow do something whatever you want to them. They're not done at their jobs they need to retire first and then think about setting up their wills and buying their burial plots and stuff like that. And then all this at the same time they're laughing at me because I'm the stupid idiot trying to defend them when they don't need me to defend them. They don't because literally not a single fucking man in my life or any stranger of a man that I've met, has actually proved any of my explanations as to why they do the things they do to be true. Do you feel guilty about something you did? Do you feel like you have to make something up to somebody because you treated them badly is that why you're feeling nervous? Am I giving you the benefit of the doubt when you deserve no benefit whatsoever? Why do I have to do that for you? Why am I the fucking fucking stupid ass idiot trying to defend you when I don't have to? You already know the reason why you're nervous and it's because you think that you don't deserve to die. Just fucking admit it! You don't deserve to get your house robbed. You don't deserve to get your car stolen because you are a you have a family of five and all your children are in grad school and one of them is going to med school and shit like that. And you have a degree in multiple degrees from ivy league. And so you and your family don't deserve to have anything bad happen to them. And so I'm busy sitting here losing my fucking ass getting my fucking feelings hurt and still fucking single and haven't gone on a single fucking date and all of my gorgeous boyfriends are fucking stolen or seduced by yet another white female. A white female with a better looking nose probably than me. Sometimes there were stolen and sometimes they were seduced away but regardless I categorize all of that shit as them getting stolen from me. That was not your boyfriend that was my boyfriend. And so also I just want to say that my relationships are not seasons of the year. And I don't appreciate anybody telling me that my relationships and my boyfriends are nothing but seasons such as winter and spring and summer. I'm not adopting that way of life. I don't think of my boyfriends and my relationships as fucking seasons and if in fact they are seasons, they always come back. They are supposed to come back if they are seasons. So don't tell me that my relationships and my boyfriends are seasons because if they were, they would come back to me. So I really just like don't appreciate a lot of different people's is stuff. I really don't appreciate their opinions as well as their beliefs and their value system and in fact, I really want to be completely fucking done trying to defend these guys as being supposedly like amazing guys who are probably feeling bad about something. Fucking bullshit they're feeling fucking bad! Fucking bullshit they're feeling guilty to where they're walking around really scared because they're scared that God himself is going to take revenge on them for something that they did in the past. The fucking bullshit you are! My fucking ask you are because literally the only thing what's going on inside of their fucking brains? Is that they don't want to die. Or they don't want to get robbed. Because why? Because either they're not done living yet or because they're too important to die or they are too young to die. That's literally the fucking explanation of all explanations as to why they're fucking scared lately! And then here's me trying to say oh god there you know please be nice to them. Please be nice to men because they don't deserve blah blah blah they don't need anybody to kill them and they don't need any kind of punishment blah blah blah. You're just letting the bad guy go by defending them like that. I am just letting the bad guys go by saying that oh they have some kind of remorse. They have some kind of fucking guilty feelings to where they're feeling so scared and blah blah. You just literally defended a guy who's probably going to victimize you next. Because that's what they're going to see is that oh this person's really nice. They think that I have guilty feelings. They think that I have remorse and so the next person on my list that I'm going to target? Is that person right there because what a fucking idiot. What a fucking idiot because she actually thinks that I'm scared because I want to make it up to somebody. She thinks that I'm scared because I'm feeling like I did something wrong in the past and so therefore that's why I'm walking around fucking paranoid as hell. What a fucking idiot and then they're going to fucking laugh their ass off at me and then they're going to say well hopefully she's the one that gets killed next. She probably will get killed next because what a fucking idiot! something's going to happen to someone like her because why the fuck would she believe a man like me would have any kind of fucking remorse at all? See and also if you pay attention to some movies. Some movies they also make that kind of storyline. You know like in some horror movies? They always make the person that was really really nice and really really gullible to be one of the first victims to get killed. That is telling you something! That tells you something. The really stupid idiot gullible girl who thinks that the man over there is having a guilt trip or having guilty feelings, that's the first person that's going to get killed. If that's the case, then guess who might be next in line to be victimized? It might even be me! Because I'm the fucking stupid idiot that was globally enough to fucking defend these dick heads! Gullible enough I said. I meant gullible not global. Because like I remember you know even in non horror movies. In non horror movies for example let's say top gun. Top gun the recent one where it was like Tom Cruise and Val kilmer and stuff like that. and in top gun there was a really like nice guy but he was like gullible but he was always trying to like go out of his way to do something or like you know defend somebody and something like that, and he was in fact one of the first victims to get killed. And that's not the only movie that has that kind of storyline! There's also a lot of different movies where you know it's a lot of times, It's usually the really gullible one or the stupid idiot that tries to defend everybody or protect everybody? And so if that's the case, I might actually be next in line to be victimized! To be fucking hurt because I looked at I fucking defended these people when the actual truth of the matter is is that guilty fucking feelings my fucking ass! Fucking punishment my fucking ass. You know what I mean there's not going to be any kind of punishment for them but there might be punishment for me for being a gullible and stupid idiot who thinks that men are nervous these days because they're feeling guilty. What kind of a stupid idiot explanation is that? Seriously name a single guy right now in my life, that has actually felt bad for something that they did and actually taken steps and action to try to make it up to me? Do you really think that that's the explanation as to why these guys are nervous after especially all of the bad news? It's because they don't want to die yet you dumb fuck! It's because they don't want to fucking they don't think that they deserve to go yet you fucking idiot! How much of a fucking idiot do you have to fucking be to see that? But anyway I just wanted to say that. Get it out of my chest and now I have to exercise. But yeah if any guys that are reading this you know, I'm not trying to like upset you or disrespect you but I don't really care right now at this point if what I say disrespect you because a lot of guys have disrespected the fuck out of me too. And they've literally not said a single fucking sorry to me. Nothing so I don't have to feel upset or bad about what I just said. Because I mean I'm trying to analyze why the fuck, if I'm so like empathetic and nice of a person and and coming to the defense of people who possibly need some kind of person to defend them, why the fuck do I keep getting hurt? and these movies that are like showing these nice people getting killed first? That they are trying to say something. Somebody out there especially in Hollywood is trying to say something about that. They're trying to say that it could be possible that if you are too fucking nice and two you know what I mean like trying to explain everything and defend everybody, that it's going to get you killed first. It's going to get you hurt first. I mean obviously somebody in Hollywood know something about something. You know they're not like completely stupid. They have some kind of like extreme analytical approach to life where they feel like they possibly know how everybody operates mentally. Like why they do the things they do and how they do and how fucked up they are and how fucked up they can be and how nice they can be and how the nice people in this world sometimes do actually get victimized first! They get killed first. So like I don't need to be doing all of this fucking analytical philosophical shit right now. I don't need to be saying okay well men are feeling scared because oh my God they realize they that one thing that they did 10 years ago is catching up to them! I don't need to be saying that because that's not why they're scared! It's really stupid of me that's so stupid of me to even say that that is the dumbest fucking thing in the world right now. Literally getting my own self hurt and nothing good has come about being that way. Nothing name one good thing that has happened to me in a relationship to where that has benefited me somehow to come to their defense and say oh man man kind you know mankind is being this way because they have some kind of remorse and they're feeling bad and blah blah blah. Did I get any money from it? I fucking lost money. I lost a lot of fucking money. Because even then I overanalyzed everything. Anyway I just thought I might say that. I'm going to end this explanation